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2016 is officially over

Saturday, December 31, 2016 @ 11:02 PM

YASS. the package has reached the US safe and sound! :)

happy to be home. tummy full of mcspicy and surrounded with all my bed buddies.

no goal related new year resolutions this year.

more general resolutions instead. ;)

Just for myself to be happy.

spend more time with people and be less anti-social.

Take each day, day by day and let tomorrow worry about itself.

TGIF

Thursday, December 29, 2016 @ 11:53 PM

TGIF!! Hallelujah. Long weekend ahead. Work has been okay. Buttt.. im really struggling with coaching in Mandarin! Im really proud of myself though that i managed to explain all about bilateral coordination and propriceptive integration! Well the gist of it and I am improving day by day. Haha maybe at the end of this year I will be an expert in Mandarin. But then again speaking about languages.. Korean lessons are gonna begin!! Excited much. :) next time can find korean 남자친구!!

THE Holidays are over

@ 7:09 AM

Well, going back to work wasnt too bad. My body clocked kinda suddenly switched back. Thank God! But i K.Oed at 8pm yesterday. 2 more days till the weekend. HWAITING! 빨리빨리!!

Tuesday, December 27, 2016 @ 3:02 AM

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Sunday, December 25, 2016 @ 12:21 PM

One day you’re gonna meet someone who simply feels like home.

One day you’re gonna meet someone who you don’t just want to spend the night with but who you look forward to waking up and sharing your morning with. This person is different because there is gonna be one person that is able to break through the bullshit you sell to the world. They look you in the eyes and know when you’re lying. They look you in the eyes and know what you are thinking and feeling before you even say. There’s a connection there you’ll never understand. But you’ll just be happy you met someone who can share in that. And they’ll let you into their world, too. You’ll talk about dreams and ambitions like you haven’t before. You’ll talk about disappointments and fears you didn’t even know of. You talk about insecurities and mistakes and there before you is someone who doesn’t judge you for any of it. There’s gonna be one person who breaks through every wall you have and you’re left with these raw emotions you didn’t even know you were capable of feeling. And you’re gonna look at them knowing well they aren’t perfect. But regardless of that your flaws compliment each other in a way that it all makes sense. You’ll realize one day you find yourself worrying when all you ever did in the past was worry about yourself. You find yourself angry at the people who have done them wrong. You find yourself feeling these things through another soul and while you can never take away their pain or the past its them you want in your future. When in the past all you ever thought about was your own future. One day you realize if anything were to ever happen to them you’d be a mess.
You realize they matter. You realize they always have. You realize they always will. You find yourself remembering every little detail. From the first time you met and the first words they said. And it surprises you because we go through motions in life seeing so many faces and having so many interactions but somehow you remember every detail of this one. And it’s something no one will understand. But the thing is they don’t have to understand it. They don’t have to accept it or like it. Cause you have. Then you muster the courage to say three words and don’t hold back because for the first time you’re looking at someone with complete confidence. One day you’re gonna meet someone who simply feels like home.

4th Christmas with the band

@ 12:18 PM

Feels like yesterday when I was struggling to even play one song for Christmas. But yesterday achievement unlocked! Managed to play for the entire mass and caroling!

Heart is full of laughter and joy.

To many more memories ahead!

Christmas is here.

Saturday, December 24, 2016 @ 1:53 PM

Had loads of fun last night at our Christmas Gathering, loads of food, laughter games and mind games. hahaha. Well to many more Christmas together!

Today's Christmas Eve and its gonna be the 4th Christmas with the band.

3 more days before it's back to work! :S

So much shit to do at work. But I'm trying to not think about it at the moment.

2016 is ending.

Wednesday, December 21, 2016 @ 12:35 AM

2016 was challenging.

Almost lost my mind in May... found it so hard to deal with my emotions and it kinda spiraled to me just crying for no reason, taking long walks at night to escape. Sitting by the river and just letting the tears fall and then realizing there was nobody I could really talk to. Whom I didnt feel like I was bothering.. everyone was so busy with work and shits.

That period was really dark for me. I do not want to go back there.

"I can't describe what I'm feeling. I'm not happy, and I know that. But I'm also not exactly sad either. I'm just caught right in between all these emotions and I feel so empty."

I'm not sad, but I'm not exactly happy either. I can laugh and joke and smile during the day, but sometimes when I'm alone at night I forget how to feel."

"And then suddenly I became sad for no reason at all."

Amazingly, God sent me an angel who pulled me out of that hole. She noticed that something was wrong with me and I was not Okay. not at all and persisted to find out what happened. but I didnt know what happened also. but long story short, I could share what I was going through and she also fed me loads of Vit B. supplements which actually helps the body regulate emotions. I became some what normal again.

June and July past, I visited HK with Cassy and had an amazing time in a place where nobody knew me. but a friend walked out of my life. It kinda hurt for a bit, but I realized that was life and life goes on.

August came and for the first time, I actually felt like I loved me.

November came and it was crazy. Had so much on my plate at work. Another friend walked out of my life, but this time he walked straight up to heaven. Rest in Peace Old friend. There are some times where I think you are still alive and that I will see a FB update.

December came and is still here. Work kicked me out of my comfort zone and most of my colleagues. I would say we really grew so much because of that. we got much closer and we really grew together in unity. Then, going to A&E alone with my momma for an eye emergency. Thank God it wasn't serious.

Would I do it all again? nope. but I wouldn't done it any other way.

Bucket List as of 2016

Tuesday, December 20, 2016 @ 10:39 PM

Sky Dive
Cordless Bungee Jump in Korea
Visit USA to play the claw machines @ Walmart. HAHAHA
Visit SS in CA. and intern there.
Meet Big Bang (Please lord at least Daesung?)
Build a real snowman

Really wanna visit the USA. TO GO OR NOT TO GO?? WAI air tickets so exp?

meh-rey christmas this year? :(

Monday, December 19, 2016 @ 10:23 PM

So.. today I mailed out a christmas present to the USA. I really hope it reaches ASAP and all in one piece. *Fingers crossed* Bubbled wrapped the shit out of that one and added packing peanuts too! One times pls.

Time is really flying and it's almost Christmas. So excited, but that also means that the sch holidays is almost ending! :/

So the question is to go or not to go.

Etsy

Sunday, December 18, 2016 @ 12:07 AM

I have revived my Etsy shop! :)

In love!

Saturday, December 17, 2016 @ 10:32 PM

Wow watching him play and listening makes me feel so happy!
Oddly satisfying! Also he reminds me of snape. hahah. a little. :)

Friday, December 16, 2016 @ 11:23 PM

What an amazing adventure. Really pushed out of my comfort zone! We walked for 20km today! Visited so many places and did quite a fair bit of shopping. My fav part of the trip was the dodgy alleyway with yummy nasi padang. Where its self service, scoop what you want and need and they will count how much it is for you. YUMs!! JB I WILL BE BACK.

Time is my friend this holidays

Thursday, December 15, 2016 @ 7:13 PM

This is probably the first year in a long time I am not overseas during the long holidays! Except for a short trip tomorrow! Excited for this short day trip! :)

It let me have loads of time to do loads of cooking and crafting. :)

That was pretty exciting.

Today I cooked Kimchi Jiggae & Loads of Banchans! :)

Okay off to look for more stuff to do.

Day spent home!

Wednesday, December 14, 2016 @ 11:01 PM

So I sucessfully baked Shepherds Pie and conquered it! :) Woohoo.

Tmr I will conquer Bacon Aglio Olio!!

I also painted some candle holders too. :) Happy.

What an amazing day!

Tuesday, December 13, 2016 @ 7:56 PM

Had an amazing day today!! :)

First, went to marymount and was supposed to help with some dance thingy. But no kids turned up. So we went to play at the playground. The playground is super cool! Theres like Flying Fox and big swings... etc. Please can we have one at boon keng too please? :D

After that, we went to Botanic Gardens for some yummy ICE CREAM!! :)

Then, we headed to Beauty world for some yummy Korean food!
LOOK AT ALL THE BANCHANS!!

YUM YUM! ^_^

After that, we headed to the Science Centre and really had lots of fun today! :)

My Belly is full of food and my heart is full of laughter.

Let go.

Sunday, December 11, 2016 @ 9:46 PM

memories

@ 8:40 PM

Looking back at all the old pictures.
Realizing that you need to treasure the friends that you have now and the memories that you have. Make as many as possible.
Cause sometimes be it circumstances or choice that takes a friend out of your life. It is super hard to walk back into their life or have them walk back into yours.

Waiting is hard.

Sunday, December 4, 2016 @ 8:21 PM

Im tired. Im done. I give up.