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My grace is sufficient for you,
for my power is made perfect in weakness.

31
Thursday, November 24, 2022 @ 10:13 PM

I turned 31 yesterday.

Do I feel different? Not so much.

But yay to mid 30s. Live love laugh


I almost baked today
Tuesday, November 15, 2022 @ 8:41 PM

I wanted to bake but then I chose to sit instead.

I am tired but joyful.

I get irritated by what may seem accusatory text messages. 


escape
Saturday, November 5, 2022 @ 6:16 PM

The dreams of fear, of danger, of a place so familiar yet so new.

I want to get lost in my dreams. 


afraid
Wednesday, November 2, 2022 @ 10:40 PM

I want to go for systema classes again, but I chicken out every time. 

I dont know If I will be brave enough to show up.

I want to go for concerts.

What would I give to go on a solo trip again to Osaka to train there again. To meet old friends. But what have I let my body become? 

I am afraid. 


dinosaur bones
@ 10:38 PM

Last saturday I went out and saw dinosaur bones! 

Stepping out made me realise that I had not been out for so long...

It made me a little anxious but wasnt too bad.

I have just been going to work then home. Work then home. Work church home. Church and home.

Sometimes in church I walk through the small path because I just feel so anxious.

Am I teethering again on the edge of another mental crisis?

I should start swimming again after work. The silence in the pool and I submerge inside, the coolness of the water.

Why does it feel so hard to pull myself out of this exhausion?

I cant sleep well but I am so tired. I havent slept properly in 3 days. 

I need a hug. 


hugs
@ 6:37 PM

I really love hugs. 



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VENASSA
23/11/91

“You'll learn, as you get older, that rules are made to be broken. Be bold enough to live life on your terms, and never, ever apologize for it. Go against the grain, refuse to conform, take the road less traveled instead of the well-beaten path."



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