I am afraid of falling in love.
Friday, December 29, 2023 @ 4:40 AM
I grew up with many women in my family suffering from marriage. Be it a divorce, unfaithful husbands, abusive husbands. I see their pain daily, I see the aftermath. At the same time I see people with loving God centered marriages.
Why am I so afraid of falling in love? When wintermelon and Pancake died. It hurt so much. I cannot imagine losing a human.
Am I afraid of reading the signs wrong? I am. I have. My first crush chatted with me till 5am everynight and walked me home after weekday masses but it wasn't mutual.
What if I am not enough? My bad habits, my snoring, my struggle with food and being a healthy weight, my health issues. What about my bad parts? What about my struggles and my worries?
What about the responsibilities that come with this?
What if we believe in different things spiritually? What if we are of different faith?
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