okay! 33! Venny you have managed to survive for 33 years!
Im grateful for all the friends met and all the ones who stayed.
I am also grateful for security, food to eat and a roof over my head. Im grateful I have the luxury to exercise and choose daily what I want to do and pioritise my fitness.
Im grateful I get to choose what to eat and having the luxury of choice.
I'm grateful for my work and my communities.
I'm grateful for my Godson and all the little kiddos.
I dont know who you are.
I'm tired.
Since last year after my op. I have lost 23kgs!
This weight loss journey seems different. I went for counselling to address my binge eating and I guess it worked! Counselling helped me get over my grief and guilt over my hamsters.
This time weightloss is not to make myself "attractive" or to be "loved" but its a health journey. This changed a lot.
In June 2024, I was diagnosed with pre diabetes, 3 months later after losing 6kgs I have reversed it! on top of that my borderline cholesterol is normal now!
This month I lost another 2kgs! It has not been easy and so easy to fall into the pattern of body dysmorphia, but I have learnt that when I work out I will put on a little muscle weight first then a few days later my fat burns and my weight drops. It's not a linear pattern of going down.
The doctors suggested so many medication but Im glad I didnt take any!
The drs also suggested a very clean diet and meal replacement, but I know now that it is not just about eating clean! but being mentaly okay with that!
I eat fried beehoon for breakie almost every morning, but the portion is really small, like 3 scoops with a lot of veggies and some protein. But this makes it feel like its not a diet. I have learnt it is okay to eat in moderation and to always offset whatever celebration with exercise.
Hopefully, I will be able to have a normal BMI by next year or at least lower the value more!
The boy did not demand his 5 loaves and 2 fish back.
What do my results mean?
At some point, loneliness stopped being something you felt and instead became something you were. You’ve found yourself justifying that it's easier to be alone, even if that feeling creates a hole somewhere in the pit of your stomach.
Thankfully, there are plenty of ways to put yourself out there and make new friends, whether it’s joining a club, striking up a conversation with a stranger, or downloading a friend-finding app like Bumble BFF. The cure for your loneliness is within reach, as long as you’re willing to take the first step!
Hello grief,
What are you telling me?
"Grief is the experience of coping with loss. Most of us think of grief as happening in the painful period following the death of a loved one. But grief can accompany any event that disrupts or challenges our sense of normalcy or ourselves. This includes the loss of connections that define us."
Why am I afraid? Fear hello. What are you telling me?
14 days later.
